Hello there! Wanna talk?

First blog on blogger. Finally the writer gets to write. Well, hello there. My name is Courtney. I'm a college student. My kinda sorta sophomore (credits you know) year starts this coming september. I'm kinda happy about it but for now I'm gonna enjoy my time off working and hanging out with my friends when I can and reading books, listening to music, and WRITING.

Hopefully this will be the first of many blog entries that I'll have on the internet for the viewing pleasure of others.

I think I'll start off with stating the reasons behind the reason why I wanted to start blogging. Well for starters, I like to express myself, and it is only so many opportunities that one can have to express themselves (artistically, sartorially or what have you)

But today especially I've had a craving for intelligent conversation. I made a profile on a chat room for gay college students in the hope of finding some stimulating conversation, but it was an epic bust. and that was only an hour ago. I'll probli never go back to that site again. *sighs* Waste of a profile...

To backtrack a little, my friends have been MIA lately. We've all been makin plans to meet up and do stuff but the plans always seem to conflict with the plans that I have already set up (aka my work schedule). So, I haven't been able to see them, thus not getting any sort of conversation intelligent or otherwise.

Today, there is something I wanted to talk about. Right before I made this blog I'd thought about this. And it is the meat of what I want this particular entry to be centered around.

I was thinking about my friends and their plans. Among the exclamations where things such as "I'll bring my wii!" and "Who's bringing what?" and "Let's do this!" It made me think alotta about the things that people do in order to pass the time under the guise of "spending time".

Honestly, I just wanna lay somewhere with my friends and just talk. About anything and everything. Just pure. raw. unsaturated. conversation. I think there is just a tad too much things to distract us from connecting with one another in this sense. One of the favorite things I love to do is have a stimulating conversation with someone. A conversation about the things I'm interested in, passionate about and bask in. I love it even more because of the rareness I have of it. I don't experience this very often.

In addition, I feel as if I don't have as diverse of opinions that I want. I don't have any really close gay male friends. I have a lot of straight female friends, and a few straight male friends, and lesbians, but the group of the gay males eludes me.

Stimulating conversation with another gay male thats around my age would be of a green pasture that I have yet to have the fortune of crossing paths with. I don't necessarily like the label of "gay male" associated with friends and conversation. Seems dehumanizing and limited in my opinion. What I mean is that I want that certain opinion, because that opinion, in reality, may be the opinion attached to a person that I relate greatly to.

I think there is a even greater recession of heart to heart talks unaided by technology or wat have you than there is an economic one. I miss it dearly, and hopefully this blog will help or at least be a stepping stone towards helping find the stimulation that I crave.

Hopefully I'll make of these! Stay tuned!