The Birth of Lorizio : A Metaphysical Theory Personified

I like to believe that we all have an ability to "sense" when someone is "The One". We have a formula of certain stimuli that, when fused together, creates the person with whom we will share the rest of our lives with. Also, I feel we have a somewhat "psychic" connection with that person, and how that person will be in the future. I think some of these instances are explained with examples in statements such as "When I met him/her, I just knew" or "love at first sight/conversation" or "just the mere exposure to the aura of the person makes your heart jump and your breath take."

Even though these statements are ridiculously cliche, over-used, and flat-out lame. I have reason to believe the facts that perpetuate their usage.

While laying in my bed this morning, while procrastinating from starting my long morning, I had an image sail into my senses. I could see myself in a bed with polished, hardwood walls surrounding it. The bed was incredibly comfortable and I was looking at a male figure with glasses on and a book in his hand. I had an overwhelming feeling of ease and liberation while hearing his voice, so comforting. So soothing. He wasn't really talking about something important. Just talking casually, probably about whatever he was reading.

I was completely immersed in his words, listening to every syllable, entirely interested. I could feel the warm, genuine smile on my face as I watched him through this futuristic, dreamsicle lense.

Years ago, I named my soulmate Simon. Later on in high school, I named him Shinnosuke. Now, a few months ago, I've been calling him Lorizio. Different name. Same entity.

This was a daydream I felt that I was experiencing as a premonition of the future that awaited me later in my life. I was seeing Lorizio a few years after we've met, together, and happy.

I have the feeling that I already know who he is, and what he wants to be. I think Lorizio is an artist, maybe a painter. He comes from a supportive family and has close ties with them. He's incredibly patient, is great with kids, and likes to smile alot. He's shy when you first meet him, but later he warms up. He's also in a lifelong search to feed his brain and learn as much as he can.

It's a random, unsupported, ineffable knowledge that I've seemed to acquire over the years. With visions and emotions such as these, that I feel only in small instances, help my flailing optimism when it comes to finding someone to share my life with. I believe this metaphysical phenomena exists in all of us and that we should try to listen to the voices of our souls calling out for its partner.

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Ok that was SO corny lol. But I wanted to just put my personal testimony out there and see if I'm the only one who experiences this. (in that case, I'm a schizo LOL) Hope to get some comments! I'll see you guys next blog!

The Lacking Labyrinth

I'm sitting here (procrastinating from doing my homework) watching the one musical I actually like: Across the Universe. The topic of this blog derives from the couple of Jude and Lucy. If you never watched this movie (I'ma need you to work on that LOL) I'll explain the characters now:

Jude is an artist/painter that is living as an illegal immigrant in America.

Lucy is a high school graduate working for the anti-war movement against the Vietnam War.

Those were very minute descriptions of these characters but the point is the both of them aren't contemporary examples of the typical walk of life.

In America, for the most part, our lives are pretty much pre-determined. From birth we are conditioned to

• go to school
• get good grades
• go to college
• graduate
• get married to someone of the opposite sex
• live in a house with a spouse and kids
• work a 9-5 job
• raising your kids with religious values and set them out to repeat the cycle.

I, personally, do not believe in this particular state of living. This abstinence is conditioned by certaint parts of my identity who don't fit the formula that was laid out for me at birth.

My own personal wishes are to

• live alone in a one bedroom apartment with a american shorthair tabby cat with another man.
• Never reproduce.
• Work as an author and a journalist. Which is not in any way a 9-5 job.

Ideally, I would imagine the love of my life to have a creative occupation such as mine. I see myself with someone similar to Jude, a painter with perceptions and values that are different than that of the typical American. I have the daydream of waking up on a Saturday afternoon in a studio apartment with a cat meowing in the background. I look up to the window where the sunbeams are shining onto an easel, where a man, wearing nothing but a smock shirt that stopped just short of posterior, is standing; a thing of beauty. He paints a portrait of the city outside the window. I lay my head on the pillow, satisfied at the scenery.

I think there is a vast liberation in the rebellion against the norm of customary living. In my present condition, I have no choice but to live a life that's different......and it suits me just fine. Living a life that is run on my own personal values and beliefs leaves so many possibilities for leading a fulfilling life. So many opportunities await me that lay outside the realm of this predetermined blueprint that most of us are forced to assimilate with.

What's so great about this "independent" way of life that I'm speaking of isn't independent to people like me. It's obvious to me that living outside of this blueprint is possible for everyone. The way a person lives should be one that is voluntary and without pressure, and definitely not one that should be frowned upon because it doesn't fall under the category of "Traditional".

I wish American blueprints were as open-ended as it claims to be. I wish there'd be an appreciation of all walks of life, and the labels of traditional or practical didn't exist. I won't use this blog entry to preach rebellion or frown on practical lives, but merely to not live a life that's done out of necessity or assimilation. Someone once said that "Whatever passion a person has, there is a way to use that passion to make a living." And I'll live by this quote everyday.